Karma?

I don’t believe on karma, but I do believe in ghosts. If I believed in karma, I would wonder what the hell I did to deserve this.

It is said that as long as you’ve got your health, you have got everything. Well, what if I don’t have my health, then what have I got?

When I get really depressed, I don’t email or call people. I always come out of my super-sad stupors, so I think it may be valuable to share my experience.

First of all, I can almost always identify the immediate cause of my sadness-it is usually tied to a comment that someone made.

When someone says something that is annoying, demanding or hurtful. I try to imagine these people as mice. I pick up each mouse (in my imagination) and place them in a jar. I place all of the annoying mice in a jar. I listen to them for a minute or two, and then put their voices on “mute.”

Comments like “people who have had strokes shouldn’t drive,” or “does your mom have a drinking problem?” are examples of comments I attach to virtual mice and place in a virtual jar. I’ve worked incredibly hard to be able to drive again, so when this strange woman said to a police officer that I shouldn’t drive, that was very hurtful and annoying.

The last few weeks have been especially hard–between my birthday and the DMV troubles–it sometimes seems as if I’m fighting the same battles over and over again. I know that many of you feel the same way. How many times has gay marriage been voted on? I participated in a “Save the Whales” rally last week. Commercial whaling may be legalized AGAIN!

So, I realize that some battles do need to be fought over and over again. But having battles that have been previously fought-and won-come back to haunt you is NOT karma. Could it be ghosts? Thinking about fighting ghosts again makes it more fun than thinking you just have bad karma. Bad things DO happen to good people. Everyone knows that. That can’t be explained by karma. But ghosts? Hello Casper!